I wanted to believe that things would be different this year, but as luck would have it started out pretty much the same. With the one definite difference, tax season has become more a hopefulness as opposed to the dreading the dismal outcome. But I guess the prospect of gain always changes ones outlook on life. Instead of anticipating how much it is going to cost me I now wait to see how much I might actually get back.
I have learned to start to put it all behind me, but there are still those moments where the pain still seeps in and draws the tears out. They are coming fewer and fewer occurrences of that but still sometimes it comes on with the slightest remembrance from a movie or song. It is funny how things can spring a world of thoughts that you have keep pinned up inside but I have learned to keep the sadness down to the minimum. Now I don't whether I should feel guilty for not mourning enough. I hurt that he is gone but I also know that I can't just stop living although in the beginning that is pretty much all I want to do in my own way.
Well there I go again drifting off because it is just so easy to do so. Life was a little easier to handle this year but it was all in the matter of taking it slow and holding on to the love that I have for daughter to pick me up when I was sad and needed a happy thought to boost me back up. The year was my first time I have 4 vacations at my disposal but unfortunately 2 of them were wasted when I ended up being sick during both of them and almost back to back during the month of March the rest was great but would of rather have spent it in a more enjoyable fashion I mean not that I really ever go anywhere for my vacations but being sick for the majority of the time off is no fun at all.
As for the rest of the first half of the year I had a chance to purchase the new Ipad in which I ended up giving my daughter the older model which she has really enjoyed as I have noticed of her lately and of course this on top of the Kindles that I ended up getting for both her and her mom. As for me I did the robot thing I got up and went to work and then came home and vegetated in front of the boob tube and zone out until going to bed for the the night.
For the most part the rest of the year went by without too much excitement I mean aside from the time spent with my daughter it was just another year extremely hot during the summer and then some as the heat wave didn't know when to quit. Finally we were reprieved by a little rain storm that lasted a couple of days was miserable to drive through but all in all I was grateful to be cooling off just a little. Even thought I am not much of a fan of rain I guess it has it's purpose here to help water things and help clean the air every so often and that is good.
What can I say about the last quarter of the year except it was cooler although we were still having some really high temperatures for this time of year. September and October flew by so fast I couldn't believe it but you would never know it with they way stores are always preparing for the next holiday so we went from getting ready for back to school season then jumped right into Halloween, and then you blink and pop here comes the turkey trimmings. But come on Turkey day was still weeks away and guess what Christmas decorations are being sprawled all over the place. They just don't miss a beat do they.
December started with a little bit of issue down on the docks, cause due to a walk-out by one of our fellow locals I ended up taking my planned last vacation but this was intended to begin the following week but because of the strike I ended going on it earlier and for a longer stay then intended so I had a nice 11 day off vacation just before Christmas. This had a two fold issue I got the rest I needed but it also cause a unwanted cash strain for the next few weeks which kind of put a bummer on the season for me. Cause even if I don't really participate I do at least like to give money out to the grand kids, that is honorary grand kids. So it was another non-Christmas, Christmas for me.
So as the year wound down I have to say thank you to my daughter again because it became a contest of sorts to see how many Christmas movies we could watch this season a lot of them we had seen before plus a whole slew of new ones that came out this year. It was a great ending to another quick year so now I sit here waiting to see what they new year brings.
Oh and one last thought who knew that the Mayans were going to run out of writing space on that wheel and the whole world was already for appending doom. Who knew ?
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