Procrastination

     Of all the things I have realized over the years my procrastination has been one of my biggest downfalls.  As I look back over it all I could only wish that things would of been different or that I cared enough to make the change, but since it is what it is and I am what I am procrastinator extraordinaire.  To some it is a gift to some it is a curse but to me it is just me being me as lazy as I can be.  Phrases like why put off what you can do today has always been turned around.  I know I know I am bad but there you have it in a nutshell.

       So this week I was off all week in which would of been a big opportunity to get things done around the house in a lot of different projects, but alas although I did get the important things done I never really got much of anything else accomplished whether I set myself to do it or it was a passing fancy.  So there you have it my greatest virtue is my ability to get out of doing things and create the best couch potato that ever lived, no no just kidding not ever lived cause it has only been the past century that anyone has been capable of becoming a couch potato. 

       When the week was finally over and I found myself getting ready for bed early in order to return back to work and the misery of the rut I have truly let dominate my life over the past few years.  I like to think that time has a way helping you get through life's woes.  So as I live through all of this and keep putting things off I will try to make some kind of change in things to start getting the clutter out of my life. 

        Well life goes on, so even with all the thoughts racing around in my head I do know that sooner or later I have to go through it all and clear it out before it is too late to do anything and in essence past that job onto others which wouldn't be too fair to them.  So hoping to get myself motivated to tackle this stuff little by little if I have to, but slowly but surely getting rid of the junk that it ultimately tying down to this house.  

       Well this is has been an adventure to say the least cause my mind has been racing around on this over the past few weeks and as tired as I have been I know I need to get off my butt and get busy clean up my life, my affairs, my house cause I really don't know how long I will be around anymore, it can all be taken away just like that.  So with new ambition I hope to make the changes needed or at least try to make a start in that direction.