The Week My Life Stood Still

In a moment your life can change so much and altar all your plans. Last week end I found out the hard way that I am not invincible, that I am vulnerable to unforseen illnesses. I guess it is that time to really think hard on things in my life.

I know it has been a long time since I last actually wrote a blog not just posted a forward. But I guess this pass week gave me a lot of time to think about things. The way I live or the way I even eat. Well sadly this became a reality all too fast when I was admitted into the hospital for something that I ate.

It's kind of hard to believe that you cause yourself such pain to the point of being helpless. And all the while you keep wondering when the pain will finally go away and nothing seems to help so finally you give in and ask for help and there I was being taken to Emergency in too much pain to even deal with it anymore. All of sudden your whole life comes crashing down and all you can think is make it go away.

So after being admitted into the hospital I start to believe that things will get better well as it turned out I had to have surgery and I wasn't allowed anything to eat or drink until after the operation which for some reason was taking a long time to be done. Even with the reassurance of my family standing by I still found the pain excruciating enough to give in to the medicince. Considering I have never really been the type of person to take pill for pain I found it became a necessity just to make it through another day.

With my mouth begging for something to drink to take away the dryness in my mouth I was finally appeased with these cotton swabs dipped in lemon juice of all things to keep moisture in my mouth of all things considering that lemons tend to dry your mouth. I don't maybe it is just sick hospital humor to give you things. Finally the dryness went away and I just lay there for my appointed time for my operation.

Well my time had finally arrived and I was put out and just like that just as I remember staring at the lights in the operating room I was staring at the ones in recovery and all I can thing is where am I and is it over already. Well now came the hard part recouping and being able to move around enough to go back to my home. Instead over the next couple of days I never felt so helpless to not be able to move cause muscles ached so much. I actually needed some one to pull my legs out of the bed and lift my head cause everything went stiff. So I am finally here back home and moving around slowly but still moving around soon I will be back to normal or as close to normal as can be after an experience like this.