Now October was a different story all together that month flew by like a blink of an eye I remember just waiting on Edison to show up and then all of a sudden there went the month just like that. I can hardly believe most of the reason I think that it went by so fast was that I managed to work most of the month taking as little as 3 or 4 days off all month. That usually tends to make things go by faster cause the busy you are the less you realize that time is passing by at such a fast rate. So just as fast as October came it went just as fast and then I found myself looking at the month of November with Thanksgiving on the horizon.
November had it ups and downs for the most part started out just fine as any other month working during the week and on weekends spending time with my daughter when I am not actually working that weekend, but as things go there was a loss in the family. My nephew was suddenly struck down with as far as we can tell some type of heart attack. It was kind of a shock cause my daughter and I had run into him at the bank only a week prior to his untimely death. What this did was renew my own sadness for the loss of my son a year and half earlier. And as usual it put a damper on my Turkey day not that I needed an excuse to be alone but none the less a rememberance of a sad time gone by. As usual it is just one more thing to have to take it one day at a time.
Now December has arrived and it started out strong me working as usual and then taking the weekend off to spend it with my daughter something we hadn't been able to do in the past few weekends. So Carisa was extactic at the chance of being able to gourge on her beloved Greek Omelet, two days in a row no less. Monday came and I got up early to go work and then my world came to a screeching halt cause as the day wore on my cold from the past month had return and returned with a vengence which pretty much left me sick at home the rest of the week so the week that started out fine ended with fighting off this illness and wishing that it would finally end. Now the weekend is back again and I am in a serious debate on whether to go and see about work or take another two days off, then start fresh on Monday morning I guess I will just leave that up to how I feel in the morning like I always do.
I know that I still have my life to live and yet I have to sit back and wonder why did all have to happen that way. But for now as I said before all I can do is take it one day at a time and hope for the best. To live my life as if there was no tomorrow and just try to make the best of what I have to live with, which is my daughter, family members such as sisters, brother and all my friends and co-workers that help make each day one to cherish and remember for all that they are worth. Hoping all along that I am given many more days to spend with them all.