Tuesday, April 30, 2013

Procrastination

     Of all the things I have realized over the years my procrastination has been one of my biggest downfalls.  As I look back over it all I could only wish that things would of been different or that I cared enough to make the change, but since it is what it is and I am what I am procrastinator extraordinaire.  To some it is a gift to some it is a curse but to me it is just me being me as lazy as I can be.  Phrases like why put off what you can do today has always been turned around.  I know I know I am bad but there you have it in a nutshell.

       So this week I was off all week in which would of been a big opportunity to get things done around the house in a lot of different projects, but alas although I did get the important things done I never really got much of anything else accomplished whether I set myself to do it or it was a passing fancy.  So there you have it my greatest virtue is my ability to get out of doing things and create the best couch potato that ever lived, no no just kidding not ever lived cause it has only been the past century that anyone has been capable of becoming a couch potato. 

       When the week was finally over and I found myself getting ready for bed early in order to return back to work and the misery of the rut I have truly let dominate my life over the past few years.  I like to think that time has a way helping you get through life's woes.  So as I live through all of this and keep putting things off I will try to make some kind of change in things to start getting the clutter out of my life. 

        Well life goes on, so even with all the thoughts racing around in my head I do know that sooner or later I have to go through it all and clear it out before it is too late to do anything and in essence past that job onto others which wouldn't be too fair to them.  So hoping to get myself motivated to tackle this stuff little by little if I have to, but slowly but surely getting rid of the junk that it ultimately tying down to this house.  

       Well this is has been an adventure to say the least cause my mind has been racing around on this over the past few weeks and as tired as I have been I know I need to get off my butt and get busy clean up my life, my affairs, my house cause I really don't know how long I will be around anymore, it can all be taken away just like that.  So with new ambition I hope to make the changes needed or at least try to make a start in that direction. 

Saturday, April 27, 2013

To Wash or not To Wash

    Well once again plans have change but this time for the better I hope.  Although I really wanted to work this weekend or needed to I find myself staying home after all.  With thought of possibly making another attempt at washing my car because it is really dirty. 

     The weekend forecast is not looking good chance of rain this weekend will ultimately put off the cleansing for another weekend.  Looks like another week of looking at my filthy car and the so called rain has made more of a mess of it.  So I had to put it off for another week oh joy.  

      Well the week goes by pretty fast and yes here comes the weekend and I finally get the opportunity to wash my car again.  It has been so long I was really hating the how dirty it looked.  Thankfully there was no rain to make my dirty car look even worse.  So finally after waiting so long I am happy to say it is all clean now.  Sometimes I wish I just had a smaller car that I could do a quickie job every week at home but unfortunately my Xterra has that basket on top and has to be air blown to get all the water out.  

     So a week has gone by and as luck would have it they are expecting some rain for this week but at least the car is clean and not worried about any spots forming from all the dirt that was there.  Unfortunately this week happen to be breezy and dusty so by Wed. there was a layer of dust that formed and had it really rained that wouldn't of been a problem.  But we live in Southern Cal. and most of the rain is more like a trickle  so instead of getting rained on it barely touches the car and leaves little dirt spots.  So after all the waiting I still have spotty car although I did try to just brush most of it off but it still shows the spots so back to the car wash I go this weekend. 

      All in all I have to sit back and wonder why did I even bother but I knew the truth was of all things I care a lot about is my car and I like to see it clean.  Maybe I am not on top of it like I used to be but I do try to keep it from getting to dirty.  Well this goes to show you how boring my life has become. 
      



Monday, April 8, 2013

Sorrow has been put on hold this year.

     What a difference a day makes.  All set for a 3 day weekend of rest and remembrance of my son. I wanted to just take it easy and maybe even venture the attempt to go in Josh's computer to see things again to bring back just a little memory of him.  Well at least that was the plan, but first I needed to go and get my TWIC card renewed.  And that is where the whole weekend went down hill for me. 

      Wasn't expecting any kind of speedy service there, knew there was going to be some kind of delay, I was prepared for the wait by bringing my Ipad , a book and of course my phone to text with if the need arises.  Well all was for not cause unbelievably I was out of there within a half hour to 45 mins.  This should of made me happy but unfortunately before going in to the place I had a little mishap that pretty much ruined my weekend. 

       Funny thing happened well parking at the TWIC Center, something as simple as trying not to park on the blue line I had to re-park the car but dummy that I am decided to do it while having door open to see the line instead of using my mirrors and back up camera. So after backing so far I backed into a low hanging tree branch that was leaning far enough over to miss my car but made perfect contact with my rear window. So all of a sudden I hear this loud pop and being that I have ran over parking spikes before thought it was my tire  that just got blew out.  But no it was my window that just pop after enough pressure was applied and the only that save me from it shattering all over the place was the tint I had on it. 

       The cost either way would pretty much be about the same. But luckily I found a place online that would come out to my house and install the new window.  Since my rear window is one of those with the heating coils in them it ran a little bit more but like I said my tire would of cost about the same.  So the guy gets to my house about 12:30 and is done in like 45 min. but the bad news is the long awaited car wash that my Xterra has been crying out for will now have to be put off for another weekend.  I has been one thing after another for over a month now and what luck it is suppose to rain the following weekend. 

       The whole mess pretty much put a damper on the whole weekend for me cause of whole reminder of a broken window all weekend.  I ended up staying home instead going to a T-ball game on Sat.  I shake it off enough so I can be able to put on a happy face and spend time with my lovely daughter.  I guess one good thing that came out of this whole thing is that it took my mind off of my son at least in which I am grateful. 

       So another anniversary date passed by and thanks to the broken window it went by without shedding a tear about him being gone.  So the weekend of sadness never happened and I am okay with that although I would of rather did without the broken window too, but I guess I can't have everything so until next time so long. 

Sunday, March 17, 2013

Another Weekends Flies By

      Weekends come and weekends go but as always I have to ask is why do they have to go by so fast.  I know when it hits all I want to do is kick back and rest, but sometimes I have things that need to be done.  Friday I was kind of trapped  at the house cause of some painting being done around the house and Security door.  Even though this part didn't take long I was stuck at home cause of the inability to lock let alone shut my door until the paint dried. 

      Saturday was a change up of plans instead of being at home I picked up my daughter to do our usual Sunday thing a day earlier cause she had to take her cats in on Sunday so we did the switcheroo.  So off to breakfast and then a little shopping spree and finally back to my house to do our usual  viewing of either Blu-ray, DVD or DVR shows recorded that we both watch.  This week we watch the Bible Pt. 1.  As far as depictions of bible stories go this was interesting although it did cut things out and stray from the actual events in order to sensationalize.  It was and okay version enough to warrant us      continue to watch the other 4 parts. Hoping to see some more closeness to actual bible context. 

       Well Sunday already and I was just vegging out on the couch playing catch-up with my shows I came close but still not close enough.  Only taking breaks to eat or bathroom runs.  With a occasional nap here and there I made it through the day and actually knocked down the total amount of shows left to watch.  As long as I can keep at it through the week next weekend I may be able to wipe the rest all off and be back at zero once again. 

       Well the night is winding down and drawing near for me to head off to bed because I have an early wake up call tomorrow.  So for now I will end this little story with a happy note.  I am grateful for the rest I did manage to get and hope to continue getting more rest during the week. 

Tuesday, March 12, 2013

Camera Craze

       Yesterday I went home after work with the intention to play catch up on my shows but instead I actually spent like 3 hours tinkering around with my digital cameras.  Putting in new memory cards and taking test shots with the new camera,  then see how it looks on the computer.  Then on to the next camera replacing the old memory card with the larger one and deleting everything off the old card.  Then finally to my oldest camera my first digital the Fuji S5000 deleting off everthing off the card and start shopping for a larger memory card for it.  

       After all of that I finally sat down ate something and not a minute too soon cause was really hungry and I had some left over shrimp and fish I brought home from my daughters house.  It actually kind of good a little more hassle then I care to deal with when eating shrimp but still they did  taste good. So after all that and watching some of my shows in the living room I finished up the night back on the computer moving some pictures around into seperate folders.  Also making additions to my movie list to get ready for another Target Tuesday with my mija.   Well  that was pretty much all that happened yesterday so after fighting to stay awake I just gave up and headed off to bed.  So until the next time.                                                                                   

Monday, March 11, 2013

Spring Forward again

     Thank goodness that most new technology stuff automatically resets the time for daylight savings time.  I remember when I had to go around the whole house resetting answering machine, VCR's, alarm clocks and regular clocks wherever they were and however many watches and phones that required to be updated. Now most of those things have automatic daylight saving settings installed so no need to do them and others because of their link to the internet or satellites.  I always seem to try to watch the change happen but as it always the case around that time I nod off and miss what I was waiting for and before I know it lost an hour in less the 5 minutes. 

       Well anyway this is the start of another Daughter daddy day which unfortunately started late but not for the normal reasons.  We both got a later start cause of the lost hour but that ended up to be only part of the reason.  After a nice shower, then getting ready to go I must of done something cause my lower back was now in a great deal of pain.  I took something to help alleviate the pain a little at least so as not cancel out on the day with my mija.  Kind of ironic the pill I took was a generic for no less but Aleve.  Well that help me get under way but by no means took away the pain totally at all. 

       So here I am on the way to my daughters house and fighting off the pain but seems to be lessening and lessening as I get closer to her house.  On the way to restaurant I am starting to feel it again wishing it would just quit, but I know it has to run it's course and sooner or later it would finally stop.  When I got to the restaurant the sharp pain in the lower back was intense but only momentarily which was a good sign.   The rest of the day it was off and on again for the most part but  the pain getting less and less.  When I got home I took some Tylenol to see if that would help and it did more then I thought it would and after dropping my daughter off at the end of the night I popped some advil to help the rest of the way and I woke this morning with it all gone what a relief. 

        in all the excitement about that thrilling pain ride I forgot to mention that I ended up buying a new Nikon at one of the stores with 32 gb on the memory card.  So I am hopeful that I will make good use of this camera and it's little brother too.   I really need to get back into using my regular SLR Nikon camera.  I am really feeling the need to get out more like I use to do but I know it will take a while for me to that.  Well only time will tell now, so this is where I will end this so as they say " Life is short don't waste it". 

Day 2 Part 2

       It was brought to my attention that on last trip to the dealers I was getting my car wash for a second time in 2 days, but in fact the second car wash didn't take place after all due to the fact of the long wait and the need to get on my way.   I was debating between going to see my honorary grandson play t-ball on a Saturday or just grabbing food to take home and eat.  Well believe it or not I actually didn't neither instead I went to take a look at new camera I was thinking of buying and do some basic comparison shopping of what was out there.  

        Well after I was finished with my little shopping trip I ended up heading back home and just popping in some quickie breakfast and relax at home playing catch up with DVR recordings.  I am not just a regular couch potato but a high tech one that can record more shows than is humanly possible to watch.  I am getting pretty bad about that and even worse when I start to fall behind cause it is next to impossible to get caught up again when you fall to far behind.  It literally takes days off and a marathon session of straight viewing to even make a dent in it.   One time I had to take vacation time just to get it all cleared up, well not actually take vacation for that reason but I did spend a lot of time playing catch up. 

       Anyway back to shopping for a new camera.  I originally wanted to look into a normal DSLR ( digital single lense reflex) but with all the extra stuff I was starting to just opt for a better auto lense camera.  I had decided to get this one Nikon cause it better mega-pixel and way better zoom then the one I have, just now to do some price comparison at different locations to get a better deal.  Made up my mind that this is the one for me I like it and pretty sure I will end up buying it.  Until we meet again and the saga continues.

Saturday, March 9, 2013

Day 2 at Dealers

      Well this morning I got off to a sluggish start and finally made to the dealers to have my shocks replaced.  I got here a little later then I had intended but I still made here about 9:15 and being it was a Saturday it was kind of crowded.  Most of the places were taken to be able to sit down have a table in front of me, but fortunately for me a man got up and I had to ask the women that was sitting there with here Ipad tablet I believe.  If she didn't mind sharing the table which she had no problem, it so nice to see people still able to share their space in this day an age.   

       I am grateful that I have the available funds in my acct. to pay for these shocks cause I was told I was in desperate need to have the replaced or else I would start bottoming out when I hit bumps and dips on the road.  I think because going to CUT since they moved has taken it toll on my shocks but after all my Xterra is 8 yrs. old now so that is pretty good that I am finally replacing them after this long a period.  I really am not sure how long they are suppose to last but 8 yrs.  Well I just got a confirmation from one of the service reps. and the normal wear is like 40 to 50 thousand miles and I have already doubled that almost tripled if is really 40,000.  

        I am sitting 5 feet away from a table with all kinds of goodies and although it is tempting I am not really interested in them but those cookies do look good.  They have bananas and apples too along with OJ to drink along with their normal coffee in the corner with donuts,  but like I said before they are tempting. I might grab a banana but right now I am doing just fine with the coffee I had earlier.  

        I have never really seen it this crowded in here before at the dealers in the service center but then again I am usually in here around 7 and out of here by now or maybe a little later, actually one time I got here by 7:30 and didn't leave until after 1:30 now that was a long day but even then it really wasn't too crowded and I had my Ipad to watch movies so the time went by kind of fast, well as fast as it would if you were stuck somewhere for a long period of time.  Todays visit was going to take a little over a hour and a half from the time they start I presume.  Being I got here at let say 9:20 I am looking at being out of here maybe as early as 11  which is not too bad.  I hope they don't have any problems. 

       The women across from me is a realtor and she was doing all of prep stuff while she was waiting for her car.  Today was not her day cause she woke up with Laryngitis and could barely talk but she tried to communicate never the less.  Finally the service rep came and gave her the bad news makes me feel lucky to only being paying so little if she were to take care of everything it would run her well over a thousand one of the problems was going to cost her at least 500 just to check to see what the problem actually was, of course that fee would then be applied to the actual repair but still just to look that is crazy.  I guess it is the way the service rep said it that made it kind of funny.  His words were if you are going to keep the car I would take care of this first cause it is the most pressing item first which was the most expensive one of the bunch. 

       Well it looks like my Xterra is almost done  and then another quick wash so I can be on my way. Not sure what I am going to do now I have the choice of going to Little Jesse's game at noon or just go back home  and veg out.  What to do?  What to do?  well I will have figure that out soon enough so I guess I am going to finish this off now so I can get my stuff ready to go.  Well it has been real I hope I didn't bore you too much with my going on and on. 

Friday, March 8, 2013

Time just keeps flying by

      Well the last two weeks has come and gone, I chose to take a job that was on the outside to get some fresh air the last week of February.  For what it was worth it was fun being around the people I like working with most of my old co-workers, friends an acquaintances.  Well as fun as it was in was only for a week cause due to the  scheduling issues of that dock I chose to go else where the first week of March.  Which it really worked out for the best as it was colder and chance or rain was in the air during the week.   Both weeks were short weeks due to different reason I only worked 4 days each week,  the first week cause I was trying to stay low enough in hours to get the job I wanted and well the 2nd week was due to maintenance for my vehicle. 

      I can't believe the year is flying by so fast already two months have come and gone just like that.  I mean it is like I blink and another week goes flying by.  I know I am get older and the time tends to go by faster for some strange reason, but sometimes I wish that it would leave you enough to time to take a step back and smell the coffee as they say or flowers for some. But basically for me I just need time to heal from old wounds and new ones too I guess.  I am learning to enjoy the things in my life a little better now, loving spending time with my daughter to the point of having to hear her voice at least twice per day. Once for my wake up call and at night to say goodnight before going to sleep. Of course the call at night has a two-fold purpose not only to say goodnight but to also ask her sometimes plead my case for her to give me a wake up call. 

         I am really starting to think more about things that I have tried to not look at or choose to ignore cause basically I didn't want to deal with them but I am beginning to feel that I need to get going on some of this stuff now before it is too late to done at all.  Aside from the general cleaning of the house, I also need to start getting my paperwork in order in the event that something happens to me.   And I know I really don't like even talking about this stuff either but I need to deal with it cause I am getting up there now in years and though I am the youngest in my family I may be the one who is the most ill and a lot of that is due to me not wanting to take care of myself.  I know but after so many losses in my life I just gave up and didn't care as much about anything anymore.  Well I hope for the best and that I am allowed to live for a longer period then I feel I am left to hope for.   But as they say only God knows when that time will be. 

         Today is  Friday and I am at the dealers of all things taking care of the needs of my vehicle so that I am able to get to work and back, being able to pick my daughter for our weekly visits and of course let us not forget  Target Tuesdays the two days we look forward to all week long.  All the other  days are just feeler days for me cause that is where the robot or zombie part of me lies doing the same thing day in and day out just going through the motions which is not saying that I am not having fun at work but some days I go there but wish I was home most of the day, but other times the silliness that goes on in the tower jobs and the just hanging out with friends when I get the chance to work at the other facility.  Well anyway back to reality now, I am here for maintenance but also to possible have other things taken care of also with that too.  Those are going to be the more expensive things needed then it comes down to decision time.  Cost and Necessity is the name of the game total bill could reach 700 or more if I get it all taken care of today.   Well looks like I may be making another trip back here tomorrow to have the shocks taken care of cause they have to order them so I will be making a return trip tomorrow but todays will be short and sweet.  Well I think I will cut this one off right here.  But stay tuned to the continuing Adventures of Tony the Tazman cya soon. 

         

Monday, February 18, 2013

Things that make you go hmmm.

       Last Friday night heading home after dropping off something at my daughters house I had to fight traffic  all the way home,  during what is widely called Rush Hour. You ever wonder why they called it that aside everyone trying to rush home.  And the key word here is trying, cause during rush hour everyone is on the road and no one is rushing.  If your lucky that average speed will get to maybe 30 to 35 mph.  It has gone as slow as 20 and as high as 55 until you can break free of the congestion and then all hell breaks loose as ppl try to reach 80 plus.

         It is times like this that I really have to wonder why labeling things the way that they do.   I always laugh when I hear a comic reference the difference with naming things.  Such as Parkway and    Driveway, Parkways are roads cars drive on and Driveways are where they park opposites can be funny when they are applied right.  The world is full of totally nonsense phrases, like he wants his cake and eat it too, I always they thought that ones was silly cause if I get cake I am going to eat it what else am I going to do with it.  Oh an then I have this friend who likes to say this phrase and it bugs the crap out of me.  "There is six in one hand and half a doz. in the other".   I mean what does that mean anyway,  the humor side of it is I have 5 fingers on one hand and half of 10 on the other hand.  I guess it can be interperated many different ways for a lot of different scenarios. 

         I am sure there are plenty of those phrases out there that we may use and some we are quite tired of hearing.  So I am going to continue eating my cake cause it was given to me and until ppl are given extra digits on their hand I will stick with my 5 thank you very much.