Procrastination

     Of all the things I have realized over the years my procrastination has been one of my biggest downfalls.  As I look back over it all I could only wish that things would of been different or that I cared enough to make the change, but since it is what it is and I am what I am procrastinator extraordinaire.  To some it is a gift to some it is a curse but to me it is just me being me as lazy as I can be.  Phrases like why put off what you can do today has always been turned around.  I know I know I am bad but there you have it in a nutshell.

       So this week I was off all week in which would of been a big opportunity to get things done around the house in a lot of different projects, but alas although I did get the important things done I never really got much of anything else accomplished whether I set myself to do it or it was a passing fancy.  So there you have it my greatest virtue is my ability to get out of doing things and create the best couch potato that ever lived, no no just kidding not ever lived cause it has only been the past century that anyone has been capable of becoming a couch potato. 

       When the week was finally over and I found myself getting ready for bed early in order to return back to work and the misery of the rut I have truly let dominate my life over the past few years.  I like to think that time has a way helping you get through life's woes.  So as I live through all of this and keep putting things off I will try to make some kind of change in things to start getting the clutter out of my life. 

        Well life goes on, so even with all the thoughts racing around in my head I do know that sooner or later I have to go through it all and clear it out before it is too late to do anything and in essence past that job onto others which wouldn't be too fair to them.  So hoping to get myself motivated to tackle this stuff little by little if I have to, but slowly but surely getting rid of the junk that it ultimately tying down to this house.  

       Well this is has been an adventure to say the least cause my mind has been racing around on this over the past few weeks and as tired as I have been I know I need to get off my butt and get busy clean up my life, my affairs, my house cause I really don't know how long I will be around anymore, it can all be taken away just like that.  So with new ambition I hope to make the changes needed or at least try to make a start in that direction. 

To Wash or not To Wash

    Well once again plans have change but this time for the better I hope.  Although I really wanted to work this weekend or needed to I find myself staying home after all.  With thought of possibly making another attempt at washing my car because it is really dirty. 

     The weekend forecast is not looking good chance of rain this weekend will ultimately put off the cleansing for another weekend.  Looks like another week of looking at my filthy car and the so called rain has made more of a mess of it.  So I had to put it off for another week oh joy.  

      Well the week goes by pretty fast and yes here comes the weekend and I finally get the opportunity to wash my car again.  It has been so long I was really hating the how dirty it looked.  Thankfully there was no rain to make my dirty car look even worse.  So finally after waiting so long I am happy to say it is all clean now.  Sometimes I wish I just had a smaller car that I could do a quickie job every week at home but unfortunately my Xterra has that basket on top and has to be air blown to get all the water out.  

     So a week has gone by and as luck would have it they are expecting some rain for this week but at least the car is clean and not worried about any spots forming from all the dirt that was there.  Unfortunately this week happen to be breezy and dusty so by Wed. there was a layer of dust that formed and had it really rained that wouldn't of been a problem.  But we live in Southern Cal. and most of the rain is more like a trickle  so instead of getting rained on it barely touches the car and leaves little dirt spots.  So after all the waiting I still have spotty car although I did try to just brush most of it off but it still shows the spots so back to the car wash I go this weekend. 

      All in all I have to sit back and wonder why did I even bother but I knew the truth was of all things I care a lot about is my car and I like to see it clean.  Maybe I am not on top of it like I used to be but I do try to keep it from getting to dirty.  Well this goes to show you how boring my life has become. 
      

Sorrow has been put on hold this year.

     What a difference a day makes.  All set for a 3 day weekend of rest and remembrance of my son. I wanted to just take it easy and maybe even venture the attempt to go in Josh's computer to see things again to bring back just a little memory of him.  Well at least that was the plan, but first I needed to go and get my TWIC card renewed.  And that is where the whole weekend went down hill for me. 

      Wasn't expecting any kind of speedy service there, knew there was going to be some kind of delay, I was prepared for the wait by bringing my Ipad , a book and of course my phone to text with if the need arises.  Well all was for not cause unbelievably I was out of there within a half hour to 45 mins.  This should of made me happy but unfortunately before going in to the place I had a little mishap that pretty much ruined my weekend. 

       Funny thing happened well parking at the TWIC Center, something as simple as trying not to park on the blue line I had to re-park the car but dummy that I am decided to do it while having door open to see the line instead of using my mirrors and back up camera. So after backing so far I backed into a low hanging tree branch that was leaning far enough over to miss my car but made perfect contact with my rear window. So all of a sudden I hear this loud pop and being that I have ran over parking spikes before thought it was my tire  that just got blew out.  But no it was my window that just pop after enough pressure was applied and the only that save me from it shattering all over the place was the tint I had on it. 

       The cost either way would pretty much be about the same. But luckily I found a place online that would come out to my house and install the new window.  Since my rear window is one of those with the heating coils in them it ran a little bit more but like I said my tire would of cost about the same.  So the guy gets to my house about 12:30 and is done in like 45 min. but the bad news is the long awaited car wash that my Xterra has been crying out for will now have to be put off for another weekend.  I has been one thing after another for over a month now and what luck it is suppose to rain the following weekend. 

       The whole mess pretty much put a damper on the whole weekend for me cause of whole reminder of a broken window all weekend.  I ended up staying home instead going to a T-ball game on Sat.  I shake it off enough so I can be able to put on a happy face and spend time with my lovely daughter.  I guess one good thing that came out of this whole thing is that it took my mind off of my son at least in which I am grateful. 

       So another anniversary date passed by and thanks to the broken window it went by without shedding a tear about him being gone.  So the weekend of sadness never happened and I am okay with that although I would of rather did without the broken window too, but I guess I can't have everything so until next time so long.