Had planned on working through this weekend but wouldn't you know it I ended up catching a cold that would bring me crashing down. I had been taking too much time off already and wanted to step it up a little. Now I am here at my house dealing the alternating sniffles then stuffy nose and of course the constant coffing and sneezing to add to the aggravation.
So I had to call a replacement for my job and I really didn't want to do that cause of the fact that it would leave them with the possibility of getting slower person who couldn't keep up. I know I shouldn't worry about things like that cause they obviously don't care to give us the enough clerks to do the job without feeling so overwhelmed. I am sorry Denise for leaving you hanging like that.
Well so after going home last night I did my usual computer stuff and then headed off to bed around 1 in the morning took my medicine and then slept in well slept in by my standards I woke up around 7:30 but stayed in bed til almost 11 just watching shows off my DVR. When I finally got up I made myself some soup and then after a little while opened up a can of fruit coctail it was good.
Shifted over to the computer room around 3 p.m. and did all my comp. stuff. Took some more medicine and shifted back to the living room to eat some food and empty more shows off the DVR in that room. I pretty much been a couch potato most of the day with the exception to being in the computer room typing up stuff and going through my files.
I have been taking what I like to call a lot of involuntary power naps all day long. Which is okay except when you are trying to watch shows cause then you have to play the rewind game through out the day. Well now that I am back in here typing away again I can only hope that I can finish this without to many power nap delays which I have already been fighting with already.
Well I think that I better get myself in bed now cause I am having to fight it off to much now so I guess this is it for tonight which it actually is already morning like almost 3 a.m. I know mija I should of been in bed hours ago but I wasn't finished yet with this so now that I am done I will say goodnite to you anyone that might be reading my rant an raves.
Saturday, March 13, 2010
Monday, March 8, 2010
As the days go by
Here we are in the month of March already and one of my biggest headaches is behind me an I am so grateful for that. Now I can start living my life again without all the stress that I tend to have at the beginning of the year. Which usually disappears after April. Well this year was no different then others except that although I thought I was in for some bad news someone must of heard me cause all the worry was for nothing and now I can breathe again with a sigh of relief.
The month has just begun but and it is only a little less then a month to the year mark of my sons' passing and I am dreading it but I am prepared to deal with it as I have dealt with all the other past months as the 6th roled on by. I have learned to deal with a minimal amount of sadness attached to the day but the biggest test will come next month on the Anniversary of his death.
His mother I am afraid will the be the one that will have the toughest time with it all. Mainly cause she has a lot harder time letting go probably cause her being his mother and also cause of the more closer loss of other family members on her side of the family. Which means my daughter will be all the more attentive to her for fear of leaving her alone on that specific date. As for me I will probably do what I have done all year long since he died, get up go to work and try to put in a days work without letting my emotions get out of control.
This April the 6th will fall on a Tuesday which has become better known as Target Tuesday not for the fact that they both begin with the letter "T" but because for some unknown reason it is also the day that new releases tend to come out at Target and sometimes even on sale at a very discounted price. It has become a father, daughter event that we have both enjoyed cause of the general sillyness that accompanies the day of shopping. I guess you can say that it has become a day to just get away from reality and hang out in the store picking up movies or books or even just a general shopping run for supplies for her house or even mine on occasion.
I have really enjoyed this time with her cause even though we talk on the phone and online it is our time to spend together without a care in the world. I mean we still get together on weekend to do the whole day thing spending it with breakfast and movies mostly at my house watching DVD's but on occasion a trip to the actual theatre isn't out of the question and of course it may be even spent waisting time in one store after another just having fun. I love my daughter and as I have said before I really enjoy this time we have together. It really helps me take my mind off of the loss of my son but also cause it keeps us closer together and in a place we both don't want to lose in our lives.
One never knows when that day will come when one of our lives or even both will be snatch away without warning and because of this the time we spend together has become very special to both of us. As with my son I do tend to worry about her in the event that either her mom or myself are taken away from her and lord knows I don't think I could handle losing another child before I die because my will to live would become non-existent. It is even to painful to even remotely ponder that awful thought.
Well I think I have rambled on long enough and I really should be winding down and finishing this little tale of lost adventures, but in parting I want my daughter to know that she means the world to me. She is really my sole reason for striving to want to live if not at least enjoy what time I may have left spent enjoying her company and letting anyone else come between us in any way. I love you mija with all my heart and very being. You bring the smile to my heart that warms me up inside and out.
The month has just begun but and it is only a little less then a month to the year mark of my sons' passing and I am dreading it but I am prepared to deal with it as I have dealt with all the other past months as the 6th roled on by. I have learned to deal with a minimal amount of sadness attached to the day but the biggest test will come next month on the Anniversary of his death.
His mother I am afraid will the be the one that will have the toughest time with it all. Mainly cause she has a lot harder time letting go probably cause her being his mother and also cause of the more closer loss of other family members on her side of the family. Which means my daughter will be all the more attentive to her for fear of leaving her alone on that specific date. As for me I will probably do what I have done all year long since he died, get up go to work and try to put in a days work without letting my emotions get out of control.
This April the 6th will fall on a Tuesday which has become better known as Target Tuesday not for the fact that they both begin with the letter "T" but because for some unknown reason it is also the day that new releases tend to come out at Target and sometimes even on sale at a very discounted price. It has become a father, daughter event that we have both enjoyed cause of the general sillyness that accompanies the day of shopping. I guess you can say that it has become a day to just get away from reality and hang out in the store picking up movies or books or even just a general shopping run for supplies for her house or even mine on occasion.
I have really enjoyed this time with her cause even though we talk on the phone and online it is our time to spend together without a care in the world. I mean we still get together on weekend to do the whole day thing spending it with breakfast and movies mostly at my house watching DVD's but on occasion a trip to the actual theatre isn't out of the question and of course it may be even spent waisting time in one store after another just having fun. I love my daughter and as I have said before I really enjoy this time we have together. It really helps me take my mind off of the loss of my son but also cause it keeps us closer together and in a place we both don't want to lose in our lives.
One never knows when that day will come when one of our lives or even both will be snatch away without warning and because of this the time we spend together has become very special to both of us. As with my son I do tend to worry about her in the event that either her mom or myself are taken away from her and lord knows I don't think I could handle losing another child before I die because my will to live would become non-existent. It is even to painful to even remotely ponder that awful thought.
Well I think I have rambled on long enough and I really should be winding down and finishing this little tale of lost adventures, but in parting I want my daughter to know that she means the world to me. She is really my sole reason for striving to want to live if not at least enjoy what time I may have left spent enjoying her company and letting anyone else come between us in any way. I love you mija with all my heart and very being. You bring the smile to my heart that warms me up inside and out.
Saturday, March 6, 2010
Did February really go by that fast
The month of February wasn't so much a insignificant month as opposed to just a quick month. It started setting up computer and installing programs for the various items I had recently purchased. My phones , Ipod and cameras all things I needed to have access with them in order to do stuff with the photos.
So aside from the fun stuff going on with computer during this month I basically went back to my old routine work all day and come home and gel in front of the TV and or computer stuff. I continued to pick up new dvd's to add to my collection and various other things on my weekly shopping trip taken with my daughter. Of course this month I did actually spend more time with my daughter at my house and various times at her house usually for dinner after errand running.
Weekends have gotten to be quite the routine between us picking her up in the morning well as close to the morning as possible grabbing either breakfast at a restaurant or fast food to bring back to my house and then watching one of my latest movies on dvd or blueray. And then sometimes we actually spend a long time being out and about to various stores from 99 Cent only and dollar tree all the way to department stores and Costco.
Usually when the day involves a bit of a shopping spree it usually takes up most of the day and therefore the day tends to go by rather rapidly as they say "Time flies when you are waisting it" well actually I have been told that is my new line by my daughter who in fact loves waisting time together because a shopping trip is much more then just going to the store it involves a lot of goofing off an just whole lot of general sillyness. Which is why we enjoy hanging out so much together in that way.
On rare occasions I have been known to actually cook breakfast for us at the house but according to my kids they like pretty much whatever I make which is nice to hear but not necessarily true cause there are things that I make that I am not totally satisfied with. But I will except the compliments knowing that it is all based on love for each other.
Usually the trip home ends with a stop for food to bring home to the house that all of us can eat and then after a little while I am off on my way to go back home to get a little time on the computer before going to bed to start my work week all over again. Well that was my month in a nut shell and it is surprising how fast it went by.
So aside from the fun stuff going on with computer during this month I basically went back to my old routine work all day and come home and gel in front of the TV and or computer stuff. I continued to pick up new dvd's to add to my collection and various other things on my weekly shopping trip taken with my daughter. Of course this month I did actually spend more time with my daughter at my house and various times at her house usually for dinner after errand running.
Weekends have gotten to be quite the routine between us picking her up in the morning well as close to the morning as possible grabbing either breakfast at a restaurant or fast food to bring back to my house and then watching one of my latest movies on dvd or blueray. And then sometimes we actually spend a long time being out and about to various stores from 99 Cent only and dollar tree all the way to department stores and Costco.
Usually when the day involves a bit of a shopping spree it usually takes up most of the day and therefore the day tends to go by rather rapidly as they say "Time flies when you are waisting it" well actually I have been told that is my new line by my daughter who in fact loves waisting time together because a shopping trip is much more then just going to the store it involves a lot of goofing off an just whole lot of general sillyness. Which is why we enjoy hanging out so much together in that way.
On rare occasions I have been known to actually cook breakfast for us at the house but according to my kids they like pretty much whatever I make which is nice to hear but not necessarily true cause there are things that I make that I am not totally satisfied with. But I will except the compliments knowing that it is all based on love for each other.
Usually the trip home ends with a stop for food to bring home to the house that all of us can eat and then after a little while I am off on my way to go back home to get a little time on the computer before going to bed to start my work week all over again. Well that was my month in a nut shell and it is surprising how fast it went by.
What I have been up to since my last post.
Well it has been quite a while since I last posted anything so I guess I will have to do the old run down. So let see since my last post I have gone through quite a lot of different things. Which have been both fun and draining to say the least.
The year started with a little bit of a shopping trip to buy a new computer for my daughter cause her old one was acting up beyond what I was able to repair which actually was more a job for my son. But unfortunately his passing has put us at more of a loss then we would like to admit. Cause not only was he our family he was our computer tech to go to for most of our problems or when we wanted to know how to do things on the computer. Well as much as I use to think I knew about computers it was nothing compared to what Josh brought to the table. My look on life has always been if it is broke beyond my ability to fix I would just replace.
So that brings us back to being at the store looking for something that would be adequate to replace my daughters computer. Having to do this without really knowing what we were looking for leaves you at the mercy of the salesperson pushing their products, but lucky for us the person that took care of us was very helpful and really answered out questions and led us in the right direction. So after being in the store for quite a long time trying to decide which one we made our decision and just had to wait for all the installation of stuff that once again would of been taken care of by Josh.
We leave the store to go hangout at my house watching movies and stuff until it was time to go back and pick up her computer and then off to take her home and for me it was the most I had ever done on the 1st of Jan. before considering that has usually been dedicated to watching all the college bowl games being played all day long. Ever since my son passed away I have been spending a lot of time with my daughter partly to not be alone and also cause I know that she needs to get out from the house of depression that she has been living in since he died.
I wish I could say that everything else went smooth the rest of the month but unfortunately hers was not the only computer to go on the fritz and as much as I have been told just to use my son's computer I was reluctant cause of the fact that it was his and I didn't want to do anything to ruin it. It is like that computer stored his whole life and I just can't see doing anything to it aside from going on their doing the normal maintenance, like running the virus scan and deleting stuff off of his email accts.
So after work one day I go in there to look at the towers since all I really needed was a new tower for my computer my monitor had already been replaced and still in good condition. After looking at a few towers I settled on one that was a really good computer and had plenty of room for me to grow into it. I am so impressed on how much faster this computer is then my own one which I still have hooked up since I still need to finish transfering stuff over to the new comp.
Finally as expensive as this month has become I finally broke down and went out and replace my phones and modified my phone service to fit my needs less minutes and more texting and unfortunately a data plan that I had to get with one of the phones and well I added it to both phones. So now I have a new comp., new phones and if that wasn't enough I went out and purchased a new Ipod touch which I have to start loading up with music. I already have about 5 movies on there now. Well the rest of the month went by pretty smoothly without another big item purchase.
Boy was that an expensive month.
The year started with a little bit of a shopping trip to buy a new computer for my daughter cause her old one was acting up beyond what I was able to repair which actually was more a job for my son. But unfortunately his passing has put us at more of a loss then we would like to admit. Cause not only was he our family he was our computer tech to go to for most of our problems or when we wanted to know how to do things on the computer. Well as much as I use to think I knew about computers it was nothing compared to what Josh brought to the table. My look on life has always been if it is broke beyond my ability to fix I would just replace.
So that brings us back to being at the store looking for something that would be adequate to replace my daughters computer. Having to do this without really knowing what we were looking for leaves you at the mercy of the salesperson pushing their products, but lucky for us the person that took care of us was very helpful and really answered out questions and led us in the right direction. So after being in the store for quite a long time trying to decide which one we made our decision and just had to wait for all the installation of stuff that once again would of been taken care of by Josh.
We leave the store to go hangout at my house watching movies and stuff until it was time to go back and pick up her computer and then off to take her home and for me it was the most I had ever done on the 1st of Jan. before considering that has usually been dedicated to watching all the college bowl games being played all day long. Ever since my son passed away I have been spending a lot of time with my daughter partly to not be alone and also cause I know that she needs to get out from the house of depression that she has been living in since he died.
I wish I could say that everything else went smooth the rest of the month but unfortunately hers was not the only computer to go on the fritz and as much as I have been told just to use my son's computer I was reluctant cause of the fact that it was his and I didn't want to do anything to ruin it. It is like that computer stored his whole life and I just can't see doing anything to it aside from going on their doing the normal maintenance, like running the virus scan and deleting stuff off of his email accts.
So after work one day I go in there to look at the towers since all I really needed was a new tower for my computer my monitor had already been replaced and still in good condition. After looking at a few towers I settled on one that was a really good computer and had plenty of room for me to grow into it. I am so impressed on how much faster this computer is then my own one which I still have hooked up since I still need to finish transfering stuff over to the new comp.
Finally as expensive as this month has become I finally broke down and went out and replace my phones and modified my phone service to fit my needs less minutes and more texting and unfortunately a data plan that I had to get with one of the phones and well I added it to both phones. So now I have a new comp., new phones and if that wasn't enough I went out and purchased a new Ipod touch which I have to start loading up with music. I already have about 5 movies on there now. Well the rest of the month went by pretty smoothly without another big item purchase.
Boy was that an expensive month.
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